The Passions of Friendship

Princess is just visiting a friend who is recovering after unsuccessful suicide attempt. She is saying following sentences to presently immortal acquaintance.

- So you don’t have enough? You still want to see what God has to offer? Oh sorry, I don’t want to be patronizing. You didn’t miss anything interesting on TV. Imagine how sad would everybody be. Lets celebrate this unaccomplished mission with alcohol and cigarettes. I’m here for you my friend. Lets stare in each other eyes. Next time you need some drama just let me know. I will show you how to suffer and get attention. And make the whole humanity suffer with you to the limits of joy. Look at the poor artists. Andy Warhol for example – he never smiled. He couldn’t afford to. The secret suffering pact with mother Teresa didn’t let him. Lets play the truth to the ears of illusion. Why should we pretend we don’t like everything. Stopping yourself from happiness is a hypersin. But even God sometimes commits it. Remember how they wrote in the Bible that he got angry with people? But he was forgiven of course. By himself of course. It is a finnessish adroitness to be able to forgive yourself. And you can do it too my dear friend because I believe in you. Do you see my belief or do I need to draw it? Oh, forgive me for bringing the happiness to you so quickly. Maybe you are not ready. Maybe my words mean nothing to you. Oh thank you for accepting nothing with such grace and understanding. Be my spiritual guide, my hero!!! I want to be the dirt under your fingernails. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Let us talk forever until we vanish on the non- selfish wish.

Is that bitch your mother who is trying to get me out of here just now? Tell her that if same happens to me my mother will treat you in similar manner.

Goodbye my suici!!!!!

Princess went for sushi and thought about that afternoon again. Her friend became nobody and never felt angry about it.

- Time for radiation – said the princess looking at the sky and grabbing the hand of the waiter. She pulled him across the town into the power plant. Over the they climbed the highest whatever and reacted the famous ‘Titanic scene’ (‘I’m the king og the worm).
- Shit. I’m late for spontaneous meeting with counselor – said the princess and evaporated.

The counsellor asked:
- Did you get depressed today princess?
- Of course not dear counsellor.
- How come? The weather is shit and the Christmas is cancelled. My mother has warned me that you are crazy.Not any bad thoughts at all? Are you sure?
- Absolutely none dear counsellor.
- Ok go.
- Thank you. I’ll see you in your dreams. Watch out for fat mickey rat!!!.

The pains of happiness

Princess went for 2 months to US nursery called Aftermath (because it was named after her grand father Mat). Over there she composed herself and this song:

Oh oh oh my joyful heart
Oh oh oh don't let it fart

With this happiness of air, smell of angel's thatch
Hey life, my mate, you give me too much

I don't deserve those friends those lovely moments here
How come it happens at once to both my hemispheres

Too happy is too much, can't stand it anymore
What have we done to earn this happiness that sores